rescue's Blog

Today I feel quite gloomy and I cant understand why. I have written a few stories lately that have opened a can of worms with my viewers. Ive talked about gays and have posted a story of people that believe in evolution. These are topics that bring to mind my teachings of the scriptures and I have commented on them and have written my stories according to Gods word. I look everywhere and I see so many places where I can comment to help so many people but am afraid to do so because I dont want to see their disbelief. I get so discouraged  in their negetive comments and I feel so sorry for them because to me anyone is lost that does not believe in god. All of it brings a question to mind and I wonder if I should remain here or continue to go on giving what I have been taught to do and that is to wittness to Gods word. Im blah and need a comment on good tidings.

Why do I feel so useless? I have lived my life and have done so many things. I have married, I have had children, I have helped my friends and people I have never met and still I feel useless. I walk around everyday as if I were a robot and most of all I feel I am an actress or a star in a play and I have been playing my part. Some one once said "Life is a stage and we are all playing roles". I get up everyday and thank the Lord that Im alive to wittness another day and wonder when my last one will be. Will I live a long life? Will I see my grandson grow up before the prophecy of the Lord is fulfilled? How can I help people that do not understand Gods plan for us ? I talk to people about the bible and have taken so much flax that I am choking. they do not want to know that the Lord is coming soon or is it that they are afraid of it? I know he tells me that the bible is not for everyone and only those who wish to know him will seek him out but my heart breaks each time I cant reach one of them. Most of all I can not stand the comments that have been sent to me on the stories I have written because they do not know what their doing and  there are so many people in the dark and I cant believe the bitterness of some of them. I cant say something to some one without the Lord in mind and when I tell them what I know to be the truth according to the LOrd I feel their wrath. I feel so useless!!!!!